You Have No Power Over Me

It's not too often that I get personal...usually my comments are soaked in sarcasm and my dorky leaps and poses in pictures keep the mood light but really I made this blog to express myself so well...I'm going to. I'll keep this anonymous so as not to name names.

I've had a tough week. It's not often that someone can get me in tears but it happened. Puffy faced, gaspoing for air Sarah is a beast I do not let out often. Long story short I was accused of something I did not do by someone else who was once a friend, and in front of those I loved, my name was thrown in the mud. Usually I'd let this roll off of my shoulders and just feel sorry for the poor load a' poo that said it but this one really hurt, and I think I know why.

Rewind. bjkfla;ghksla...(this is supposed to be what talking sounds like rewinding) fjkdsla;gdas.

I've had a tough year when it comes to friends. Everyone that I thought was once a friend completely disappeared. My life changed when I got married, I was no longer part of the single scene (which heck I'd be a weirdo if I was part of that scene) but because of that every friend (but one and my awesome sisters literally though) completely vanished from my life. Sir Matt is always and will always be my best friend but let's face it, sometimes a girl just needs a girly friend to chatter with, cry with, laugh with (make random music videos with...you know who I'm hinting at, it rhymes with shmaitlin, renny, pichelle and shmemily). Anyways this has left me feeling soo in need of a good friend.

Fast forward fjdksal;gjdsa (this is supposed to sound like fast forwarding) fjdksla;fj.

So this whole accusation was so hard on me because it reminded me of that fact that my friends have taken a turn for the worst and in it all, I'm left alone sometimes.

Fast forward to today. fhdkslagjdask (you know what it means) fjdksla;g

I feel so incredibly lucky. Nothing big and surprising has happened, I woke up, went to class, went to work, came home....and a little package appeared on my doorstep. Reminding me of the fact that the people that really matter love me more than anything, and that whether or not they're here with me now, they're always with me and will always be my best friends whether it's a hug, a letter, a shoulder to cry on, or some more nutella (hallelujah my third jar is running low) they'll always be my best friends, and for that, today I'm the luckiest girl in the world. I love you guys!

 For the person that was made happy by my tarnished reputation. You no longer have any power over me, I'm happier than ever, I've completely let you go, and it feels dang good.